Chorus

 

 

"Frames of Reference"

 

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I'm reading a graphic novel about processing trauma and perceiving trauma from different points of view. It's also a meditation on just what is "The Truth."  The book is titled "Look Again." It was suggested to me by my friend P.    I'm enjoying it quite a bit. The main character has this chorus of voices in her head that harangue her constantly. There is a dragon who is always telling her that she's a fool or she's doing things wrong. There is a hawk who tries to offer objective, unemotional, 'sensible' advice. And - of course - there is a pickle who most of the time is running around and shouting "Danger!" or "Warning!"   The chorus of voices in the book got me thinking about the dominant voices among the dozens that are with me every day. There is the voice that tells me I'm lazy. That voice is incarnated by a high-school Trigonometry teacher, who, although she graded my work  with A's and B's, thought it best to tell me "I see you Mr. Goodwin. You only do enough to get by. You're lazy."  Then there is the "You're a fraud." voice. That voice is incarnated by a person who sees through all my efforts and tries to make sure others see through them as well, straight through to the fraudulence that is at my core. There is the wild, ravenous, voice that  only growls "Eat!"  There are the others that don't show up nearly as often who are even less helpful..    The Dharma has helped with not getting as caught up in the inner chorus than I otherwise would be. I'm grateful for that.  What does your chorus tell you? Are you fortunate enough to have a cheery, encouraging chorus?  Or - maybe no chorus at all? ~