After it recedes

 

“Love blurs your vision; but after it recedes, you can see more clearly than ever. It’s like the tide going out, revealing whatever’s been thrown away and sunk: broken bottles, old gloves, rusting pop cans, nibbled fishbodies, bones. This is the kind of thing you see if you sit in the darkness with open eyes, not knowing the future.” ~ Margaret Atwood ~ When I took that little 12-15 hour a week job at a speerchul center, I let love for the organization's purported mission blur my vision and blunt my discernment. After a few weeks, the tide went out (so to speak) laying bare all the problems (covered in prior posts) that led me to leave them.  I felt like a such naive goof for a while afterwards. "So gullible - even at your age..." I scolded myself. It was like that Jackson Browne lyric: When you see through love's illusions, there lies the danger. And your perfect lover just looks like a perfect fool. I still want to work part-time, for the money and for the engagement. Next time, it won't be about love, though..  ~