"UpBeforeDawnPrideSwallowingSiegeThatIWillNeverFullyTellYouAbout"
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It's been fifteen months. Roughly 450 days. I'm down to 179. This could be the lowest I get without either further reducing what I eat or dramatically increasing exercise frequency and intensity. So - it appears that I will not reach my personal goal weight of 170lbs. The most recent check in with my doctor revealed that my A1C continued to sink, as did cholesterol and triglycerides. Kidney function remained in normal range. Blood pressure meds have been reduced once again to an eensy amount of a single drug. A number of ReallyBadDiagnoses have been removed from my medical chart.
My doctor is happy. Since the February 2024 check in, I've continued lifting weights in an attempt to build / retain lean muscle mass. In an effort to protect geezer connective tissues, I'm using baby weights and high reps. Even so, I've been able to injure my left shoulder, the pain from which has been my alarm clock for the last two months. Yay pain!!! My mental state is still fraught. Still quite raw. Still feel like I am under attack from an environment that insists on shoving shit food down my throat at every motherfucking turn. Not being able to use food to smooth out life's myriad disappointments, frustrations, and calamities makes for a bumpy emotional ride - for me and by extension those around me. Really not up for bullshit any more. Really really really not.. Still - in retrospect.... I've done something that is quite unusual - dropped 85lbs without expensive drugs or dangerous and invasive bariatric surgery. I feel better. I move better. Joints are way less balky than they used to be. But - Now I'm entering into the so-called "maintenance" phase of "my weight loss journey." This is the most delicious phase for the **Slenders to witness - the phase that ends in doom for 96% of the people who try to reduce body mass. **Slenders - these are folks who, by dint of luck, or genetics, are slender AND (this is important) they make plain their disgust for fat people AND see them as less-than AND will take it upon themselves to provide "health tips" and / or amusing anecdotes about fat people.. I know it may seem that I am being hard on Slenders - but - if I may - you have not been on the receiving end of a lifetime of judgement and ridicule for how your body looks. To be completely fair with my Slender brethren - you have been helpful in your own way. You've helped keep the internal fire of intention stoked.. and for that I am grateful. ~ |
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