Coping

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Crane-dala"
(In progress)

Nikon D7200
Nikon 10.5mm Fisheye
Lightroom
SnapSeed

A coping mechanism for depression / despair has manifested itself (once again)... Repetitive motion and/or  repetitive mark-making. I don't even recognize the behavior until I'm well into the cycle. It's not like I say to myself "Hmm - let's completely cover Dorothy's coffee table with paper cranes with the metta prayer written on them.."  It just starts... and then I wake up (ever so slightly) to what is happening..  And then there is the matter of the metta prayer that is written on each one -  May you be peaceful. May you be happy.  May you be safe. May you awaken to the light of your true nature. May you be free.  Are these notes to myself? That thought makes me recoil in disgust. "How selfish!", "What a baby you are!", "Spoiled!", "Indulgent!!!". So - I do my best to convince the inner critic that they are for everyone else "out there".  Even when I finish placing every single one out in the world. He still won't believe me.

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